I didn’t get to write a post last week because life is just incredibly busy. I always feel like I should start my make up blogs with, “forgive me father, it has been 12 days since my last post.” That might just be leftover guilt from my own childhood. But seriously life has been busy! It seems the nights and weekends go by in a blur and still somehow my to-do list gets longer and longer.
Sometimes I think about giving up the blog to have one less thing to do in a day, but then I realize it is the only thing I have that is truly my own. It gives me time to myself and the chance to use my brain. I can often forget that I have space in my head for more than dinosaur facts and menu planning. I don’t get to connect with co-workers in an office anymore, but I really do enjoy connecting with moms from all over who “get it” that life with kids is a whole different thing. It makes the stress of parenting a little more tolerable when you know you’re not alone.
Speaking of alone time, I keep trying to focus more on scheduling time for myself in each day. It truly makes a difference, but that means my day starts at 5:30 or 6:00. My human body was not designed to be awake and functioning at that hour, but I get up and fake it til I make it anyway. It is the only time of the day that there is quiet, and a battle royale doesn’t erupt while I take a shower. Without that one hour by myself in the morning I feel like I start my day being shot out of a cannon. Which I haven’t done in real life, but I can only assume it would give me a heart attack.
Besides being so busy with the kids, and trying not to get shot out of a cannon, I have a few projects I am working on to grow my blog a bit bigger. I am hoping to offer some free guides very soon and I hope to have time to work on some even bigger projects to announce in the future. If I got paid just for the ideas in my head I’d never have to work again. But this all requires being organized and proficient which can often tip off my need for perfection and feeling productive. That’s how I used to love my life to feel: productive. Ticking off items on my to-do list was pure bliss.
After practicing letting go and minimizing my need for perfection, I kind of like when I have nothing to do. I like not having to get up and rush. The luxurious feeling of sleeping in until 7:00 a.m. has won out a few times this week (which I regret after the heart attack begins). Last week I finished an amazing book and over the weekend I went out with friends. Sorry dear readers but that meant you took a backseat for the week. I hope there’s no hard feelings! Just trying to practice what I preach. Let go and take time to live the less than perfect life.
So now I feel like I’ve experienced both worlds, the struggle to be perfect and the struggle to do less. It’s time to find the balance. I think I’ll schedule that for tomorrow. Or maybe the next day. Eh, maybe next week. Whatever, I’ll figure it out eventually.
Until next week, may you all have time to do nothing!
The Whatever Mom is a twin mom learning to let go of perfection. She shares her real life struggles with parenting through her blog and contributes her time and talents as a writer to Hudson Valley Parent and Masshole Mommy. When she isn’t writing you can find her chugging coffee, folding laundry and not judging other parents. Don’t forget to subscribe via email so you never miss a blog post again! You can also find her work featured on Mamapedia